There are several things that are leading me to the decision to remove my blog. I receive an overwhelming amount of messages and emails on a daily basis. While weeding through the messages, I realized that a majority of it is hate or anons/blogs attacking me personally. I can handle non-Muslims attacking me, but for brothers and sisters to be so cruel and have a problem with me because I am white, American, and a revert… well, this is not a place I want to be. I already have a difficult time when I realize that I have been Muslim since August 2011, and I still do not have 1 female Muslim friend in real life (only those that I have met through here). Most white Americans see me as a terrorist now, and the Muslim girls in my community see me as just an outsider. I am honestly exhausted of seeing all the hate that I and my fellow reverts have. I am tired of battling it and feel like it is hopeless. I feel that I am wasting my time with this blog, and it has no longer become what I intended it to be. I feel that I am no longer benefiting myself or others from this blog. I think that it is time for me to leave Tumblr and focus on reality and the life that is around me.